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  Copyright 2012 Suzanne Stengl

  All rights reserved.

  ISBN: 978-0-9880365-3-6

  This is a work of fiction. All of the characters, organizations, and events portrayed in this novella are either products of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously.

  Publisher: Mya & Angus

  Cover Design: April Martinez

  Layout: E-Book Formatting Fairies

  www.suzannestengl.com

  Acknowledgments

  Thank you to Dara-Lee Snow, who encouraged me to write this story in the first place, and Vicki Chatham who beta read and offered excellent suggestions.

  Dedication

  to Louise Behiel

  Founder and Charter President of the Calgary Association of the Romance Writers of America.

  So many good things have happened to me because of CARWA, and without Louise, the organization might never have existed.

  Chapter One

  Already late, Jessibelle Shay rushed off the elevator and almost tripped over old Mrs. Hartfield who was kneeling on the floor in front of the opening doors.

  Looking miserable, the little grandmother scooped her fallen groceries together. The flimsy plastic bag that had held them lay abandoned on the carpet.

  Jessibelle glanced at her watch, sighed, and then knelt beside the old woman. “Those bags aren’t very dependable, are they?”

  “No, dear,” Mrs. Hartfield answered. “I forgot my cloth bag and now look at this.”

  “Don’t worry,” Jessibelle said. “Nothing’s broken.” She retrieved three apples and four oranges and dropped them into her shoulder bag. Then she picked up a tin of tea, a jar of mustard, a small bottle of cinnamon and a bag of raisins.

  “That’s right. Nothing is broken,” the old lady said, sounding more cheerful. “Nothing to be worried about.” Agile for her age, she rose to her feet cradling a package of macaroni, a box of graham crackers, a pint of cream and the torn grocery bag.

  Together they walked down the hall to their apartments, moving at the speed of Mrs. Hartfield, which wasn’t very fast. Jessibelle listened as the grandmother talked about her swimming lesson, her euchre game and her infant grandson.

  They lived on the top floor—the seventeenth floor—of the Villa Marie Towers in the coastal college town of New Breckenridge in the Pacific Northwest. Jessibelle’s door faced them at the end of the hall, and Mrs. Hartfield was her neighbor on the right.

  When they reached their doors, Mrs. Hartfield was still talking about her grandson. She transferred her groceries to Jessibelle’s arms and found her keys.

  A moment later, Jessibelle carried her armful of groceries into Mrs. Hartfield’s apartment and set them on the counter, along with the apples and oranges she’d had in her shoulder bag.

  “Would you like a cup of tea, dear?”

  “You know I would, but I’ve got my Spanish class.” She’d only have a few minutes to grab her books and run for the bus. “I’d better go.”

  “All right. Another time, then.”

  Jessibelle let herself into her apartment, picked up the mail that had dropped through the letter slot, shuffled through it, and stopped.

  She felt her shoulder bag drop to the floor as she stared at the linen envelope, hating to open it. Needing to know. She took a deep breath, slipped a finger under the flap, pulled out the invitation, and read the words.

  She scanned the words again, thinking they might change, but they didn’t. The gold letters pulsed on the ivory paper with solid certainty, telling her that her worst fears had come true. Her old boyfriend and her used-to-be Best Friend had invited her to their wedding.

  Pain tightened her chest, and images of the last year flashed through her mind.

  “I’m in love with Hanna,” Rodney had said. “You and I were never meant to be.” And then he’d paused and added, “Except for you to be a stepping stone to my meeting her.”

  She’d said nothing. And done nothing. No shouting, no condemning, and certainly no crying. She could never be theatrical. She’d accepted Rodney’s news in silence, then wished him well . . . while the ache of disappointment pierced her heart. She’d put on such a brave front. She was so brave.

  And so stupid, since she was the one who had introduced them.

  “You do understand, don’t you?” Rodney had said. “I can’t help how I feel.”

  A blankness muffled her mind and she wondered, again, if she could feel anything. Maybe all of her feelings had died that day.

  And now this. Now she was expected to carry on with the pretense. To wish them well. To smile for the cameras. To pretend her life had moved on.

  It would take a miracle to get her through it, she mused.

  Then she heard the crash of glass in the living room of her apartment. Last week, a seagull had banged against her window. Nothing had broken, then.

  But something had broken now. The large living room window gaped open with a ragged hole letting in the sea breeze. Shards of glass scattered over her couch and chair and coffee table. And, more astonishing, a man dressed in black jeans and a black T-shirt knelt in the middle of a heap of broken glass in front of the couch.

  A window washer?

  His arms, bare and muscled, braced in front of him, gripping the bottom of the couch. Glass flakes sparkled in his hair. Like his clothes, his hair was dark. Dark brown, almost black.

  Jessibelle felt the cool spring breeze shiver over her skin. She grasped her sweater, pulling it close. Should she call 911?

  “Sorry about that,” he said, lifting his head. “I’m not used to this yet.”

  She bent over him, looking for blood. But there was no blood that she could see. Not even any scratches.

  She felt herself start to breathe again. No blood. That was good, right?

  She looked into his eyes, his deep brown eyes, to see if he was okay. “You’re the window washer? Are you all right?”

  He sat back on his heels and brushed some glass out of his hair. “No,” he said, “I’m not the window washer. But yes, I’m fine, thanks.” A slight pause. “How are you?”

  “I—I’m . . .” A trail of tiny bits of glass decorated the shoulder of his black T-shirt, like diamond chips, glinting. “What happened? Are you sure you’re not hurt? What are you doing here?” Maybe she should run next door for Mrs. Hartfield?

  “I’m here to help you,” the man said, dusting glass off his clothes as he got to his feet.

  Stunned, Jessibelle took a step back and looked up at him, comparing him in height to Rodney. Rodney was tall at almost six feet, but this man stood much taller.

  “I’m here to accompany you to the wedding.”

  What? A niggle of unease prodded her. How could he—? “The wedding?”

  “Yes,” he said, flicking more glass off his shoulder. “That invitation? The one you’re holding?”

  She glanced down at the forgotten invitation, now crushed in her hands. And then she looked around the living room, noticing the fragments of window glass sprinkled everywhere. And, noticing how the late afternoon light arced through the glass, making the room seem bright. Brighter than it ever was at this time of day.

  A little part of her mind was thinking it would be a good idea to be afraid of this intruder.

  It was only a little part though. Mostly, he had her complete attention. But, what had he said? Accompany her to the wedding? “I don’t understand.” She looked at his eyes again.

  His bright eyes. His very intelligent eyes. His—

  —laughing eyes?

  “I don’t understand,” she repeated.

  “I’ll explain. But you should sit down.” He looked at the couch, at the thick layer of glass splinters. “Let me fix this first.”

  The glass started
to shimmer and to lift up off the floor. And to swirl, and then to sort itself back into a window. And, suddenly, there was no more broken glass.

  Only the sun glinting off the window with the lighthouse in the distance and a pair of sailboats racing across the bay.

  But the man was still standing there.

  Jessibelle felt her knees weaken. She watched, with a weird sensation of calm, as red dots blinked over her tired mind. Finally, she felt herself sinking to the carpet.

  And then all was black.

  · · · · ·

  When she awoke, the light was dimmer.

  Or maybe she wasn’t really awake yet. Maybe this was still part of her weird dream. At any rate, she didn’t want to open her eyes. So she kept them closed, and listened.

  The tap dripped in the kitchen. The clock on the stove ticked slightly, like it always did. Out in the hall, she heard Mrs. Hartfield’s door open. Heard Mrs. Hartfield humming. Heard the old lady put her key in her lock, and turn it. And then she heard the footsteps trail away.

  Judging by the nearness of these sounds, Jessibelle was on her couch, in her living room, and she hadn’t gone to bed yet.

  Sorting through memory, she pieced the day together. She must have taken a moment after work for a short nap. But, if she didn’t wake up soon, if she didn’t at least open her eyes to begin the process of waking up, she would keep sleeping until morning. And then she would miss her Spanish class, because it was Monday night. Monday night meant Spanish class at the College.

  That was the plan, she told herself, letting a little more awareness into her brain. She would learn Spanish. She would take that big vacation to Spain. The big vacation that she and Rodney were supposed to—

  The familiar ache jabbed her heart.

  She couldn’t think about that now. She had to get ready for her class, so she opened her eyes and looked up at the ceiling with its fake Tudor beams. Then, she sat up and looked out the big living room window at the sun setting over the bay.

  A sparkly sensation pricked the edges of her mind. The déjà vu glimmered, and then disappeared. It was, after all, only a window. Windows didn’t break and then reassemble themselves.

  Letting go of a sigh, she realized how tired she felt.

  Out on the water, the golds and reds and purples mixed with the ocean and reflected back on the clouds feathering away into the night. She was going to be late for her class.

  “Feeling better now? You must have been tired.”

  Adrenaline dissolved her exhaustion. Her heart skipped and reorganized itself. And then she turned her head toward the overstuffed chair in the corner of her living room.

  “Who are you?”

  “I’m Gabe. The guys upstairs sent me to help you.”

  “The guys upstairs? There is no upstairs. This is the seventeenth floor.”

  “I mean—” He paused and looked up. “The guys . . . upstairs.”

  Jessibelle blinked and the world hummed. She let her head fall back against the couch, closed her eyes, and faded away again.

  · · · · ·

  The next time she woke up, she was in bed.

  Morning light filtered through her pink Chenille curtains. She’d left the window open last night so she could smell the fresh sea air with its promise of spring. And also, so she could hear the seagulls crying as they wheeled over the bay. She liked listening to them. They reminded her of . . . freedom.

  With wisps of sleep still floating through her mind, she breathed deeply. She hadn’t slept so well in a long time. And now it was time to get up. She felt her mind pause, with the disorientation of waking.

  There was something about yesterday. She stretched, not wanting to sort it out just yet—and tangled her arm in her sweater.

  The groggy feelings fell apart, leaving her wide awake with the realization that she’d fallen asleep with her clothes on. Rubbing her hands through her hair, she tried to think.

  Her job, at City Realty, had mushroomed since she’d been hired a month ago. Technically, she was the daytime receptionist. But since she’d started, there’d been a backlog of filing and ordering and billing to catch up on. Perhaps she was working too hard, trying to get everything caught up all at once. Today, she would be sure to stop for a lunch break.

  But there was something else . . . about yesterday. She’d had the strangest dream. A man in her living room. Her living room window—

  Her open bedroom door caught her attention. Usually, she closed the door when she went to bed. But she’d forgotten. Obviously.

  And that other sound? That was not the seagulls? She tilted her head, listening hard. Music? And then, voices?

  Her radio, set to the Seraph Morning Show, played in the kitchen. She’d forgotten the radio too. That must be the Morning Traffic Report.

  Not that traffic mattered, since she walked to work.

  She pushed back the covers, sat up, and considered her bedroom. She needed to clean it out. Or at least get rid of the stack of Belle Magazines next to her desk. She never read them, but it felt reassuring to have them there. In case she wanted to read something before bed. In case she needed something to take her mind off . . . things . . . before she fell asleep.

  The magazines could go, she told herself. She had no trouble falling asleep. Except, maybe, occasionally. Maybe there was the occasional long sleepless night thinking about Rodney and—

  She stopped the thought. Tonight, she’d take her basket of laundry to the laundry room in the basement. And she’d take her Spanish homework too.

  The flamingo orange sack containing her Spanish books leaned against the bedroom door frame, reminding her of assignments to be completed.

  She looked away, cringing. Somehow, she’d managed to miss last night’s class. If she didn’t spend some time studying, she’d never learn the language, and she’d never take that trip to Spain.

  Hopelessness slipped past her defenses and she sighed, deeply. And then she smelled—

  Coffee?

  Puzzled, she smelled again, breathing the aroma into her lungs. Had she actually programmed the coffeemaker? She never did that. She hated programming things. And when Rodney had bought the coffeemaker—

  Rodney? Her heart rushed. Was Rodney here? He’d never returned his key. Was he looking in on her?

  Flinging back the covers, she headed out of the bedroom, down the hall and into the living room. Pausing on the threshold, she forced herself to look at the living room window—which was bright, clean and spot free. Not even a tuft of seagull feathers.

  Just a bad dream. Nothing to be concerned about. She was not losing her mind. She would get more sleep, starting tonight.

  The radio sang over the room, telling a story of a lost love. Jessibelle crossed the living room to the dining area. It adjoined the galley kitchen and showcased her round cherry wood dining room table—a gift from her grandmother and her one decent piece of furniture.

  Jessibelle paused in front of the table, breathing in the scene. The deep brown hardwood with its hint of dark red displayed a mouthwatering breakfast: three strips of bacon, two poached eggs and a stack of buttered toast triangles.

  And, a new jar of marmalade, not something she’d bought. Rodney must have brought the marmalade: a little jar with a green plaid covered top.

  All that and the steaming coffee, already poured with milk added. The way she liked it.

  He’d used her yellow smiling face coffee mug, and one of her yellow-check place mats, and one of her yellow Serendipity plates.

  But where was Rodney? Why hadn’t he stayed?

  Disappointment overshadowed her initial delight. And then she noticed it—the folded card propped behind the marmalade jar. She picked it up.

  And her heart sank. Here was the gold-lettered invitation she’d received yesterday. This much of yesterday’s dream was real. And this was why Rodney had made her breakfast. He wanted to know what she thought of the invitation. He wanted to know if she would come.

  As she drop
ped the card onto the table, someone knocked on the door.

  Jessibelle straightened, ignoring the ping of anticipation that rippled through her at the sound of Rodney’s knock. And then horror struck, as she realized she hadn’t even combed her hair this morning. She ran to the bathroom, looked in the mirror, saw long straight brown hair, and fluffed it with her fingers.

  Okay, so not beautiful, but she certainly had that slept-in look. Taking a deep breath, she calmed herself. And chided herself. She had to quit hoping for a miracle.

  Rodney was here as a friend: to check on her, to see if she’d received his invitation, and to gauge her progress in getting over him.

  She would not disappoint. Brushing her hands over the wrinkles of yesterday’s clothes, she stood before the door, and braced.

  A second knock sounded as the radio started a new song. Now or never, she thought. She set her determination and opened the door, ready to face the man who had broken her heart.

  The sparkling sensation of déjà vu blasted her again and she took a step back. Not Rodney at all, but yesterday’s dream. He stood before her, quite real. Tall, muscular, still wearing black jeans but now wearing a different black T-shirt. Last night’s T-shirt had been solid black. This one had a pair of white wings across the front. His hair looked darker than ever, but at least there wasn’t any glass in it. And his eyes seemed to tease her.

  “I thought I’d use the door this time.”

  “Pardon?” she answered, automatically. What she was thinking was impossible. She had not met this person before. Or, if she had, she was positive she could not have met him in her living room last night. There was a perfectly logical explanation.

  “Do you want to invite me in?” He didn’t wait for an answer, but walked past her and into the galley kitchen. He opened the cupboard door above the sink, took out a mug—the Irish one that Hanna had given her on St. Patrick’s Day a couple of weeks ago—and poured himself some coffee.

  He leaned back against the counter and took a long swallow. And then a deep sigh. “I forgot how good this stuff tastes.” He added more coffee to his mug, and went to the table to sit across from her place setting.